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June 19 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!Birthday again, but this will be a boring one, comparing to last year's, which you can also find in my blog. It is just a normal working day during my internship. What I will do is drawing and meeting, and then drawing again for tomorrow’s meeting. Luckily, my principal is always late in the morning, so I got time to write something. Happy birthday to myself! Maybe I am alone in this city, I never got emotionally abandoned. I have parents and fiancé to talk to, although in distance; others I am not able to talk to, but still I can feel the blessing, and finally, a friend to have dinner with. That’s fairly enough. Also, it happens to the traditional Duanwu Festival, do you remember? Hi, folks, enjoy the special day with me and have more Zongzi! June 17 漂泊无定5月底,回到了久违的家乡,连绵的梅雨把我关在温馨而安全的堡垒,逗留了短暂的两个星期,6月10 号北上首都,11号飞Boston,转机加上晚点,路上大约也有20来个小时;自东向西的时间倒流让我稍稍有了喘息的时间,13号赶往纽约,还倒霉地错过了一趟车。14日,我已经端坐在SOHO的办公大厦内,每天早晚淹没在纽约上下班的汹涌人流里。但我也不属于这里,等到8月底,我又该卷铺盖走人,回到Boston。住在哪里我还不知道,不过可以肯定的是9月2号,我必须出现在Bratislava的机场,为下学期的studio做准备。那口绿色的大箱子载着我的“值钱家当”,陪我流连在地球的各个角落,穿梭在错乱的昼夜轮回。这种大规模而快节奏的颠沛流离已经不能用好玩来形容了,漂泊让人精疲力尽而又备感孤独。陌生的环境对于身体来说是一个方圆百米的圈圈,为了怕迷路,你总不敢轻易地走出去,只能千篇一律的每天要么Mc Donal 要么Subway。而对于心,它就是一潭冷水,你还来不及将周围的一圈焐热,又要被丢到另一团冰冷中。这样的大千世界,任你有了自由,有了金钱,有了时间,总也走不完,看不完,最后还落得个身心俱疲。高中的时候,我还像大部分青少年一样怀着环游世界的幼稚梦想,现在才发现心里最留恋的还是人生起始的那个源头。上大学前和父母生活的十八载光阴似乎只是人生中一个小小段落,但是仔细算算,依照我现在回家的频率,在剩下的人生中,能与他们共度的时光总共加起来也不过三四年,短的可怕。每每想到这里,我就有一种背弃承诺的负罪感,想起那句带有悲观色彩的老话“树欲静而风不止,子欲养而亲不待”。所以,我常常有这样的痴想,只要工作到45岁,赚到足够的钱,不管我身在何处,我就要丢下一切回到我的那个小房间,守候着我的亲人,就像我人刚开始的时候那样,我必定还能无忧无虑的像个小孩。我回去得也许有点晚,但绝对不会太晚。 |
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